The Right Choice isn't always the Easy Choice....

No, it's not.

I did the right thing today. I helped a friend that wouldn't help himself. I took away his choice and forced him to get the help that he needed. He probably hates me right now. At least that's what I would think considering the texts he is sending me.

It makes me sad, it makes me wonder if what I did was the right thing. There's some pretty hurtful things that he's said now. I've asked him to. I've told him that I can't talk to him anymore unless he actually gets the help that he needs. I've been trying to help for almost and year and a half now and he still refuses to help himself.

There is only so much that a person can do.

So yesterday I helped him the only way I had left. I don't know if he'll accept it. I don't know if he'll appreciate it. All I know is that I've done all that I can and I hope that he'll one day be able to help himself.

I wash my hands of it.

I haven't responded to a single text he's sent since last night. I don't want to delete them. I read them just in case they get really nasty and I have to do something about it. It's not every day that you're asked to come end a life one minute, sexually harassed/abused the next minute, and then told how much you've screwed up a life the one after that. It was terrifying.

I didn't want this to end that way. I didn't want to have to make ultimatums. I wanted to try to be friends. I'm not very good about cutting people out of my life, I don't like it. But as my wonderful friend CB pointed out he's hurt me more than enough and he just keeps hurting me. He's a toxic relationship and sometimes you just have to cut the ties and end it.

It hurts more than I thought it would but less at the same time.

He keeps texting me. It's really starting to piss me off.

I'll tell him once more to stop and if he doesn't I'm going to go talk to someone about what measures I can take to make him stop. It's time to start looking out for me.